I hate my job

I hate my job.

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I’m not special. A study found that nearly 75% of workers have “checked out” of their jobs.

I am one of them.

How did I check out? I’m not in a hurry to check my e-mail. I browse online a little more than I should. I started online shopping again. Every time I see my boss or certain coworkers, I die a little inside. I’m ashamed to admit that I’ve cried in my car on my way to work–and more than once.

The novelty of having a full-time job and steady paycheque has worn off. I spend almost 12 hours a day getting ready for work, going to work, working, and then returning home from work. Seriously! Here’s a breakdown of my day.

7:00 am – 7:45 am: Get ready for work.
7:45 am – 9:00 am: Drive to work
9:00 am – 5:00 pm: Work
5:00 pm – 6:00 pm: Drive home from work

The most productive and mentally active parts of my day are spent at work. All I want to do at 6:01 pm is rip off my clothes, shower, stuff my face with food, and lie in front of the t.v., mindlessly drooling. Then, I lie in bed and dread going to sleep, because then I’ll have to wake up and go to work.

I know I’m lucky to have a job. I’m a recent (about 2 years out) grad with nothing more than a simple B.A. I know my peers are struggling. I feel for you guys. As a side note, give me a shout if any of you need help with your resumes! 

I’m not a stereotypical millennial brat. I haven’t asked my parents for money since I was like 18. Seriously.

I’m just so bored. I am so understimulated at work. I’m a paper pusher. It seems that my intelligence has plummeted since starting full-time work. And on that note, where has my creativity gone? I don’t have unrealistic expectations, and I certainly don’t expect to save the world. I just want to be interested in my work. I want to learn. I want to grow. I want to see the fruits of my labour, and feel like my life has meaning.

But for now, I’m just a cog in the machine.

Sigh, tomorrow is Monday.

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13 thoughts on “I hate my job

  1. I feel you. I quit my job recently because the mindlessness of it all made me feel restless and depressed at the same time. I didn’t even have a horrible boss or co-workers (I got lucky), but the fact that every shift was the same old, same old was enough to drive me up the wall.

    • Where did you work and what are you doing now?

      • I waitressed at an adult entertainment club and was a bartender at another club, working long hours (16-hr shift on Friday and a 16-hour shift Saturday, every weekend, with OTC shifts Mondays and Thursdays).

        Now, I am waiting to fly back home to New York this Wednesday. I’ll be staying with my mom for a little bit to get away from the routine. Not sure what’s going to happen when I return from NY, but not trying to think too much about that right now either.

      • Good for you! Take it one day at a time. It’ll all come together and make sense soon.

  2. Merp, this is never a fun feeling! I started getting a little burnt out on school my senior year – hellooooo senioritis! – so I totally know what you mean about that awful bored feeling!
    Maybe try checking out a few “inspirational” books to help jump start your inspiration and creativity. Cheryl Sandberg’s “Lean In” has been really popular and a lot of my friends really liked Steve Jobs’ biography. I actually just picked up The 4-hour Workweek so I’ll let you know if that was any help at all! 🙂

    Mondays are rough but maybe you can snag a whole pan of lasagna for yourself, Garfield style!

    xx,
    j. parker

    • I have heard about “Lean In” and I’ve yet to check it out. I definitely wanna read that one. In fact, I’m going to download it to my e-reader right meow.

      I’ve heard mixed reviews about the 4-hour workweek, and most of them have to do with Tim Ferriss than the actual book. If you’re into these kinds of books, you might enjoy Penelope Trunk’s blog: http://blog.penelopetrunk.com/

  3. Ooh thanks for the head’s up!
    I personally really liked Lean In (for the most part) so you’ll have to let me know how you like it when you finish but the 4-hour work week is kind of ehhh so far. Fingers crossed it gets more revelationary later!

  4. I know what you mean. I went to college thinking I’d go to grad school right away, then I graduated and I needed a break, and so now I’m at a job with a company that is great but I know I’m meant for more. Blogging recently and interacting with great people on here has given me an outlet to think outside the box of my 9-5 and got the creative juices flowing of what I want to do again:) Maybe go to own.com, there’s great stuff on there I pull from for inspiration from time to time.

    Rakhi, xx

  5. I know what you mean. I went to college thinking I’d go to grad school right away, then I graduated and I needed a break, and so now I’m at a job with a company that is great but I know I’m meant for more. Blogging recently and interacting with great people on here has given me an outlet to think outside the box of my 9-5 and got the creative juices flowing of what I want to do again:) Maybe go to own.com, there’s great stuff on there I pull from for inspiration from time to time.

    Rakhi, xx

  6. I know what you mean. I went to college thinking I’d go to grad school right away, then I graduated and I needed a break, and so now I’m at a job with a company that is great but I know I’m meant for more. Blogging recently and interacting with great people on here has given me an outlet to think outside the box of my 9-5 and got the creative juices flowing of what I want to do again:) Maybe go to own.com, there’s great stuff on there I pull from for inspiration from time to time.

  7. I feel your pain. I spend my working life wondering how to kill the rest of the day so I can go home and be productive.

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